Monthly Archives: February 2013

A struggle overcome

Do you ever think that you’re just not good enough?  I do.

For years I have struggled with the issue of not being good enough for God.  Let me clarify, I know that God loves me despite anything I can do, it’s not that I think I’m not good enough for God to love, I struggle with whether or not I’m good enough for God to use.  I have spent so much of my life trying to improve myself, which in and of itself is not a bad thing, but when I do that for selfish reasons, like hoping God will love me more or that people will think I’ve got everything figured out, it is a bad thing.  I have constantly looked at what others are doing and have tried to emulate them, thinking that if I could just do that, I will be good enough.  Unsurprisingly, that has not helped my struggle.

Recently, Christ has been working on my heart, constantly reminding me that with Him, I am enough.  God can use anybody in order to do His will.  He did use a donkey after all.  I don’t have to work to improve myself; He is already doing that in His own way.  Every struggle that I overcome, every Bible verse that I read, every prayer that I say is God shaping me to be the person He will use.  How foolish of me to think that I can do His Kingdom’s work on my own!

Today I read 1 Corinthains 2:1-5-

“And so it was with me, brothers and sisters. When I came to you, I did not come with eloquence or human wisdom as I proclaimed to you the testimony about God.For I resolved to know nothing while I was with you except Jesus Christ and him crucified. I came to you in weakness with great fear and trembling. My message and my preaching were not with wise and persuasive words, but with a demonstration of the Spirit’s power,so that your faith might not rest on human wisdom, but on God’s power.”

This spoke to me in powerful ways!  Paul, one of the greatest evangelists of all time, wrote this, and here he admits that he came in weakness and that he knew nothing other than the fact that Christ is our Savior!  This brought me renewed hope and peace, that I am perfect the way I am.  I do not need to be some great Bible scholar or “super christian” in order for God to use me to bring people into His love, all I need is the knowledge of who God is and what He has done for us, God will do the rest.  This, ladies and gents, is a load lifted from my shoulders.  I hope it helps you as it helped me.

It’s just a thought
-Liv

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Valentines Day, Taiwan Style

Did you know that Valentine’s Day was last Thursday?  We didn’t.

Valentine’s Day this year was quite a different experience than we are used to.  There were no giant teddy bears everywhere, flower shops were not boasting sales, card shops did not have shelves upon shelves filled with Valentine’s Day cards (in fact, I didn’t see one V-day card), and restaurants did not have hour-long waits.  Without the constant bombardment of romance, the day slipped by quietly.  We realized this the day after Valentine’s Day, and decided to make it special in our own way.

We went to our favorite restaurant, Camera Cuisine, and had a wonderful night filled with delicious food, wonderful conversation, and love.  We concluded the evening by watching a movie together and eating jiggle-pop (that’s the popcorn you have to cook over the stove, we don’t have a micro)!  We’ve never loved the crowds on Valentine’s Day, so this small celebration of our love was perfect!

We also spent this day reflecting on our life together and how much God has blessed us so far.  We are in a new country, seeing new things, and experiencing God in a whole new way.  Through this experience, God has brought us so much closer to Him and to each other, and that in itself is a huge blessing!  In case you didn’t know, we spend pretty much every second of every day together, the only time we aren’t together is if one of us is teaching or in the bathroom (hehe).  For some people, that may sound overwhelming, but for us, it is perfect!  We have come to understand each other better, communicate more effectively, enjoy each other’s company, pray together, and talk about God’s work in our lives.  This experience is one we wouldn’t trade for anything.

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Surely your goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.

Psalm 23:6

 

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